MIA

Well a a few days after I made that previous post something…

HORRIBLE HAPPENED.

OMG.

My computer stopped like working. Some logon problem of some sort. I couldn’t really fix it, but I tried to anyway. I failed pretty hard and made it impossible for me to logon. Like it froze before even getting to the desktop. I tried all sorts of different things, but each was full of fail. I eventually just decided to completely re-image the damn thing.

Yeah, so I lost everything and I got pretty depressed, so I never really had this urge to like blog. And what not.

Things have been going pretty okay, like I’ve said before. I don’t really feel like talking about anything right now.

Maybe I do?

I type pretty loud I realize. Have you ever been on webcam with me? Yeah I kind of type furiously and like a beast. :| Hmmm. So I felt pretty bad last last night. I had some sort of food poisoning from hometown buffet I think. Or maybe I just eat extremely unhealthy… blah. Barfing and other nasty stuff. Aint so great. I feel like an anorexic yaknow.

I obtained Joy Luck Club, I watched like 5 minutes and it looks interesting so far. But I’m going to save the rest to watch on Tuesday to watch with a certain someone. ;] Yes of course…

Oh, so fun. She wants whipped cream to go with this food, but she won’t tell me…

So mysterious… it really makes you wonder.

By the way, http://cybercomplex.tumblr.com/

I r moving there.

Bored?

Who knew I’d get bored of blogging so fast.

Actually, it’s just I’m getting tired of it. Lazy, rather.

I’ll start a tumblr and link it here. I’ll switch between blogs I guess, tumblr for smaller entries. WordPress for bigger ones.

Depends on my mood I guess.

Thing have been going okay recently. I mean, a lot has happened, but there’s that laziness that comes. Gah, I’m mad at myself for my lack of ability to finish things I start. It doesn’t really happen all the time, but I guess the time calls that I don’t need long blogs.

Aye, I guess I’ll condense it. Friday, was not so amazing but above average. I was on this field trip thing and I hit the Defense Language Institute in Monterey. They had this cultural type festival going on and I had gone for spanish class. What I did there was learn more about certain languages. The highlight of my day was learning about japanese culture and the language. I thought it was pretty amazing learning a little history and how to write my name in Japanese and say it. I’m Arrekusu by the way. ;3 I learned some Chinese and Dari as well. It was funner than school, although I wish Angela was around…

Later that day I went to the Newpark mall with her, so that made me real happy. Stuff happened and well, I’m happy!

Less detail on purpose. :D

Went boxer shopping, but I ended up getting a pair of shorts. That’s good too, considering it was like the sun outside the whole weekend. Friggen 50 million degrees outside and other factors led me to have absolutely no sleep. Or little of it. Guh, and it was randomly smelling in my room. I had to lysol it every couple hours. My window was open too, stupid diffusion… D:

Saturday was relaxing and a lot of in depth talking going on regarding my friend’s relationships. All these different perspectives on love help me understand it a bit moar.

What made me the most happiest today was Lucky Sticks and Spongecake. Maybe I’m too easy…

What special thing can I bring on Monday? Hmmm.

I’m thinking I’m a hypocrite. This was a long entry…

I was reading Joy Luck Club and I happen to like this quote, even though it doesn’t particularly relate to me or anybody I know.

“Why do you think you are missing something you never had?”

I have you, and I miss you. <3

Computers

Oh yeah, in APUSH.

Mr. Shawn looked like a total idiot when he made blind support for the Mac.

Everybody in our class supports Windows.

No doubt, the Mac OS IS good, but it’s still kind of accepted that Windows is still better.

I’m not going to go into reasons why, just go visit computer forums or some crap. You’ll see. >_>;

Slowing Down

Things have been slowing down.

Like with everything. Even mah own life. I dunno, it’s actually kind of relaxing. I’m enjoying it and my overall happiness is just at an above average and good level. It’s all so laidback. I guess all that stress for AP Testing allowed for slower classes where there isn’t much homework or learning. Like for example, I haven’t had challenging homework for like ever since AP testing had started last week. I’m loving it! :D

Hm, besides that… not much has been going on with my life? Aye, today we flew some balloons in chemistry. Had something to do with PV=nRT. That relationship. It was hot air balloons we flew. Angela and I’s balloon passed, but really retardedly. It was kind of funny actually. Like, it wasn’t even a balloon flying! It was this flat piece of light paper being flown around because of the strong wind current. I guess that’s what allowed us to pass. Haha! I had to chase after it and it got stuck on the antenna of a car. We put an anime character on it, and it was a really really good drawing in my opinion. Angela doesn’t think she draws good, but I’d humbly disagree. I admit, the balloon was poorly designed, but it can’t be denied the original drawing of anime girl was awesome.

In APUSH today we had watched this video concerning the linear system we live in today. This video made certain points about how society works and how consumerism is overall a harmful thing that must be fixed in a way that creates fairness within the world. Something like that. Hit storyofstuff.com. It’s a good view I suppose. However I thought of it as some sort of propaganda. Most of it was basically trying to put fear into our minds and make claims that were not always true. Although some of the woman’s points were understandable, and true, I didn’t entirely agree with her. Other times I found myself agreeing with her for they were good solutions to problems. I know I sound pretty vague, but if you know enough you can find her support is weakly supported. For example, even though this doesn’t discredit her argument, I found it disturbing how little research she had done about consumerism of computers. She had told us that technology is purposely made to be obsolete so that you have to buy a COMPLETELY NEW COMPUTER. Totally untrue, and the points she was making about toxins and how it harms us because we sleep on it is kind of unbelievable. However, I don’t know enough, so let’s let science and not her decide if pillows are harmful to our brains. Hmph, what else was there? Stuff about how we should change the system. I guess that’s one solution, along with another, would probably be to educate. But what does that do? We’re lazy as ****. Since we’re lazy that’s why we have this system in the first place.

I dunno I’m kind of an advocate of this system. I believe our quality of life has been enhanced due to the cultural revolution and partially because of consumerism. Her system of change sort of goes toward socialism, and I’m not quite an advocate of that. I think it just gets us more lazy and uncompetetive, therefore less progress. I guess that’s an idealistic claim, but that’s my basic philosophy.

Well besides that little rant, things are getting pretty interesting with all this extra time. I guess it allows me to think again. Boyyy, I hate focusing too much on school, it’s not even that important compared to what we’ll need later. I won’t go into detail and into another rant about that though.

Peanut butter sandwhich and bananas are calling for me! :3

Mother’s Day

There’s just those short periods or days where you want to blog, but you just can’t bring yourself to.

That’s been me for the past couple days. Eh, I dunno why.

I really really like you, you know. Things haven’t changed.

Have a happy mothers day! All of you made children. ;3

Hot Air

Rawr. That means I love you. ;3

Huh. There’s been some hot air coming around lately. D: Yesterday was okay though, probably.

Hmmmm, it was just like any other day I suppose. Except Angela was off taking an A.P. Stats test during lunch and beyond. I guess it was a bit lonely. But I caught up with the friends I don’t usually hang out with. Tara, Michaela, and Raphael. Michaela and Tara kinda miss me I think, I feel a little bad sometimes. I dunno, friends are a complicated issue. They’re like my closest, yet not so close at the same time. ;3! It’s okay… I hope. I think it’s kind of accepted that I don’t hang with them often. I mean, it’s not really different from before…

Chem was odd… not having Angela around. It was a test though, fairly easy. I got like a 95 percent or something along those lines. Would’ve been B+ without the curve. Eh… :/ I feel failure.

After school was pretty cool. Like, I guess I just improv’d it. Luckily I live close by the school! :D I planned to just go home and chill then visit Angela after the stats thing. INSTEAD. I hung out with Michaela! Tehehe. She showed me this s00per awesome rubberband trick. I was amazed at the magic!!! :3

After we hung for a few I hit my house to eat something and left to see Angela! <3 I brought along this pastry thing I always eat for breakfast so I could give it to her to eat, but like… I ate it in assuming that she wouldn’t like it. It had raisins… Idk. I hate assuming, gosh. I’m such a hypocrite.

Hung out for a bit… and well just like the window incident at prom. Something hecka dumb happened to me.

Okay so like basically… we were hugging and I was like. YO. MR SHAWN IS OVER THERE. And she’s like *PUSH* WHAT!!?! In my attempts to run away… I jumped backwards to the left. And I ran into a ****ing pole! THIS HUGE POLE. I RAN INTO IT. WTF DUDE. IM SUCH AN IDIOT. Like I hit it maybe even HARDER than the glass window. Dayummm negro. You could hear the vibrations in that pole and my head is still like. Bloodrushing or whatever. I can feel it now, one day later.

Yeahhh.

Then there’s today. Nice day, but kinda hot yo. It’s that HOT AIR mannn. It’s all over the place.

This morning I got this really really awesome surprise. It made me… so. So. HAPPY inside. Like, everytime I look at it… my feelings are upped and I feel so much better. It’s so cute, I can’t deny it… I should frame it! Ahhhh! The things I fall for. I love these tiny puzzles. :)

She wasn’t around again for lunch. She had to finish that chem test I mentioned earlier today. Yeah speaking of which, Hot Air balloons lab.

So much hot air.

I hope she liked that banana! LOLOL. Out of all the fruits…

Study sessions are fun. ;D

It’s so hard to decipher chinese. <3

You put the Stud in Study

Yeah, that’s right.

You stud, you. <3

That’s all I did today. It was pretty damn successful too!

The parody turned out pretty okay. The reactions of the class were questionable though.

Oh and today. I had so much asian food for breakfast! IT WAS SOOOO REMINISCENT (If that’s the right word) of my grandparents stuff they fed me! Brought back some memories… I’m kind’ve craving some more. Being a young asian dude in like San Jose. Playing with my hot wheels on the playground. Going to the chinese restaurant. Getting fat. Gooood times.

There was this like salty cracker thing and haw flakes and a cookie with a mysterious nut thing in the middle!

OOooOoooO. They make a great filling snack yaknow! But Angela, the person who gave it to me, could eat like 16 of them or something. That’s one seriously hungry person yo.

Omg. Tara keeps making these hecka cool shirts, I’m so tempted to buy one from her for 20 bucks. They’re so creative! This recent one she made had like pacman on it or something. :3

Ohhh, I recieved this hecka random cool gift from Drew today. It was friggen. SEXY. Like, my favorite anime. ON A DVD! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES. NOGIZAKA HARUKA NO HIMITSU SEASON 1. Best. Anime. Ever. Highly recommend. So so so cute. I love it. <3

School was soo soo. HAPPY. I loved it. Especially the morning breakfast she brought. :)

SAT

Pewpew.

Things are going pretty okay, if not better! Friday was like, a drama or something. Half of it was depression, the other half happiness. I’m glad things worked out.

Saturday was the SATs, and well there were millions of high school people from throughout the tri-city area to take it. Crapppp, SAT all around the country yo! I wonder why we have to take it… I heard like one of the SAT tests would stop in 2010. Maybe that’s just a rumor? I think no more subject tests… but I forgot.

Yeah anyway, I cut in line. I hear it’s like bad luck. If I get like under 1800 maybe I’ll believe it. :o But usually I don’t believe in superstitions. I felt kinda bad though… like really. Angela was pretty far back and she wanted me to come with her. But then I was like, I don’t want to wait, come up here! I should really respect her thoughts huh. :| I’m an idiot.

Newark Memorial is a pretty big school. o.O I wonder how many kids go there. Not to mention their huge fricken gym. It’s got like two stories for all da kids! O:

Trying to find my classroom was kind of hard. I was trying to follow the map with Chase, and we went all the way to the back of the school where the fields were and we like PASSED IT. Then we saw some kids walk INTO a building. I was like woahhh, I didn’t realize the building’s doors were open… but maybe I’m just stupid. Dx

Despite all the kids coming to the SAT, nobody I REALLY knew was in my room. Just Chase. O: We didn’t even sit next to eachother though. Then again, we can’t talk in there.

Huh. There were these really annoying bitchy obnoxiously loud flirty “popular” girls in my room. It kinda ticked me off, since they were the only ones causing a commotion. I just wanted some damn silence yo, or maybe an equal ammount of sound in the room. It just came from that one area of “HAHAHAHHA OH MAHHH GAWD! TEHEHEHHEHAHA I CANT BELIEVE HIM!? OMGG LOLOOOL”

Then this indian guy started to flirt wit da wite gurlz. Lol, I guess they knew eachother or something but sometimes he’d try to tell a “cool” story about him and his friends doing something “hella dumb” and like, it sometimes made the girls laugh. Other times it just made things awkward. Overall they didn’t really seem to care.

Yeahhhhh. I had like no extra time through the whole thing. And time flew by hecka quick too. I found the essay part pretty interesting to write about though. I finished. 5 paragraphs with 2 5 5 5 1 sentences. O; They only gave us two sides of a paper to write on too. I wrote reasonably, I think.

It was something about good decision making. Like, should we use logical thought or feelings to make a decision? I argued that good decision making requires both thought and intuition. Thinking about it though, I believe MOSTLY thinking things through lead to good choices. Not all the time.

Hmph, I got pretty braindead. Once it was over I could feel my brain throbbing or something.

Relaxed Now. :D

Religion and Reality

I don’t really have time to make some mega big rant of refutations or opinions. But I found this I guess pleasing to read to get my mind working like it used to. I forgot some things though.

http://michiko.tumblr.com/post/102147242/harbringer-an-open-letter-to-religious-people

Read up on it. Both are kind of weak/assumptious. The quoted is judgemental, however understandable.

Some questions the quoted talked about was “Why is there Evil?” It can’t really be answered, but as with everything, it needs to have a definition. Most often people will either call it divine justice or unnessary suffering, rather than a wrong. Either way, it’s hard to say. Why is there good? We’re all assuming that there is an omnipotent and omnibenevolent God. That’s religion, pretty much what was being talked about.

Reality is all conceived differently. Religion and Science are theories. Use your knowledge, logic, intuition and take into consideration both sides. Just don’t blindly follow them. Think for yourself.

Whatever reality you live in, I hope you enhance it each day.

Anything

I’d do anything.

To learn about those feelings.

Communicating.